Turn away
By Tom Foolery on April 12, 2026 6:56 am
Typed out a whole description and must have timed out so when I hit submit it made me log in again and my description was gone. Sadly another frustrating moment in the creation of this weeklybeat. Despite a lovely week this track has pushed me to the edge and emotionally unraveled me.
This was meant to be a simple piece but the fingerpicking pattern was like a tonguetwister for me and I kept ruining take after take after take. It's funny how once you have expectations you can easily be disappointed. Once you have desire, you're frustrated. You can hear where I finally give up in this take and switch styles for a very cathartic ending. I was simply just done at the end of this.
My week has been well spent otherwise though. I've spent time with old friends. I've been enjoying riding along the Yarra to my new office, and I'm enjoying getting properly stuck into the work at the new job! I enjoyed a peaceful dinner by myself in the city on the commute home. I went to the gym with a friend while it poured rain from the sky outside. I felt a glimpse of the running strength I had last year. My body feels strong again, moving through the world feels easy these days. I think there's probably a lot more on my mind but it's easy to keep moving, it's only when you stop to record the same guitar pattern for an hour and a bit that you start to notice where your mind wanders to. Anyway, I really had a lovely week, and I'm hoping that in a few days time I will be separated enough from the frustration to enjoy the good in this piece.
as the blood drips from my chin
I wonder when I'll break this wall in
my loose muscles force my lips
over my teeth to make a grin
how dare you turn your back on me
I wish you'd had to see my face
the tracks I stopped in disappear
the last to lose has now been crowned
I reach between my shoulders
and pull myself off of the ground
a silhouette can bring her voice to my ears
people should take gramophone recordings alongside their photographs
Audio works licensed by author under:
CC Attribution Noncommercial No Derivative Works (BY-NC-ND)
