I miss those days

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This song is dedicated to my family.
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We are sooooo close to being over!!!! I can't believe it's already been 51 weeks, this is WILD!

This song is almost like a B side to one of my favorite tunes I made for WB this year, "my body just needs to cry sometimes". This song once again uses nothing but some epiano samples from a GO:PIANO pack provided by sumedokin in the Dirtywave Discord server.

I gave this song some finishing touches this week, but I actually wrote most of it during my Thanksgiving break, during which I got lucky and was able to find a lot of music making time. The break also gave me the opportunity to spend a lot of time with my in-laws, with whom I am lucky to have a phenomenal relationship. At one point during dinner, folks got out old family albums and were looking at a bunch of photos from way back when. For some reason, this was a bit difficult for me to deal with. You see, being an immigrant and living far away from all of my immediate family members, I don't get to spend as much time with my brothers or parents as I'd wish. Also, having grown up with (and enjoying) frequent big family gatherings, it was predictable that the long-distance between us was going to be especially hard. In this specific scenario, with my wife's family all gathered around at the table, sharing stories of decades past got me into a very peculiar mood of sadness and longing. It sounds totally selfish, but I wish my family were there too, sharing our stories and photos as well. I found myself all teary eyed, remembering the days when my grandparents were still alive and we had these big Sunday meals at their house. Or just hanging out with my older brother and his family on Sundays for breakfast and lunch.

I wanted to write something that harnessed that feeling of sweet longing for the days of your youth, when you were much more innocent, had to deal with much fewer responsibilities and had so many people you cared deeply about living under the same roof as you or just a thirty minute drive away.

I'm not sure I was able to quite nail down the "thirty minutes away" feeling, hahahahaha... But I'm very happy with the rest. What I'm most proud of is that the song doesn't feel necessarily sad per se. Yes, it does contain tinges of sadness and nostalgia and maybe even a little bit of melancholy, but I think the overall mood is more of "I'm so grateful for my amazing past" instead of "I wish I could relive those days".

Thank you to everyone who listens, thank you to everyone who reads my essay-long posts, thank you to everyone who comments, and thank you to everyone who continues to make music. This has been such an amazing experience. Thank you for making me even more sure about my newly acquired passion for music making (well, can we really call two years "new"? Whatever...).

Hope y'all have an amazing week, folks!

Cheers!!!

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