Infinite
By dadboy on March 4, 2026 12:26 pm
OK, so I had actually finished and uploaded a track yesterday, but then I made this tonight and decided to scrap last night's track (for now). Still kinda speedtrash, but a different genre/vibe (went shoegazey on this one). The mix and master are rough, but that's ok. I didn't have a lot of time so I can live with it, and it fits the shoegaze vibe some. Mostly done in a single take with M8 providing drums and clock, a TEO-5 patch, and then a lil arp on the astrolab, plus me playing some guitar. I then went back in Reaper and added in some bass with my fretless. I used lots of FX from my iPad. I had a lot of fun with audio/midi reactivity for the video in VS2.
Don't have a lot of time for a reflection, and this was a bit of a vibe, but we've entered into the installation phase for one of the target memories in EMDR. I realized I have been felt a lot of guilt and shame for letting myself being hurt, and for mistakes I've made, and I'm fearful of it happening again. I'm trying to be more gracious to myself for having made mistakes, and recognizing that "you can commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not weakness, it is life." As I stare down the rest of my life and beyond, I'm feeling a little less afraid of making mistakes, today, and a little more excited by the many ways it could possibly go. Still lots of work to be done, but therapy is helping. Be well, friends!
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