I'm a Perfectionist
By Abludo on May 15, 2022 11:40 pm
I wrote this song several years ago, but never finished it - which has a rather funny irony to it. The first few seconds come from the original 'demo' version from back then.
I eventually recorded drums and guitar in the studio at my uni a couple of years ago, but the project left unfinished on my computer. This week I came across it and decided to re-record the vocals and actually create some instrumentation for it. It is... not perfect, but I think if any song is supposed to be released un-perfected it is this one!
I got caught up in being conventional
And tying to impress my friends
My music’s become too intentional
And that’s where my fun seems to end
I polish my songs till I hate them
Too obsessed to leave them raw
But trying to copy other songs verbatim
Always leaves me wanting more
My work’s never perfect
And it seems to affect me a lot
It always seems to hurt that
Other songs are perfect
And mine are not
The more that I listen
The more I can pick them apart
It is what it is then
I continue to listen
And break my heart
Some days I like what I hear of mine
I wonder how I could create it back then
But even 5 minutes, a matter of time
Is all that it takes for me to hate it again
I try to learn from other people’s music
And think I might just have it nailed
That feeling I always seem to lose it
It’s replaced by the thought that I’ve failed
My work’s never perfect
And it seems to affect me a lot
It always seems to hurt that
Other songs are perfect
And mine are not
The more that I listen
The more I can pick them apart
It is what it is then
I continue to listen
It's just the start
One day I’ll look back
Another way I’ll look at
it all
The things that I see
Will mean nothing to me
Anymore
The more that I listen
The more I can set them
Apart
All music’s different
So the world can just listen
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