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Will I Find My Way Back?

By Tone Matrix on April 12, 2026 7:49 pm

I haven't been the person I thought I was going to become.
There are times where I find moments of solace. 
Unfortunately it feels like everyone is progressing and aging without me. 
I'm stuck in nostalgia because it reminds me of how innocent, naive and care free I used to be. 
I want to find my purpose again. I want to find my way back. 
But I don't know how and if I will in time. 
The thought overwhelms me.
even the algorithm knew it
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Yes. You will make it back.

The low chant is the star of this one. This choon features some raw, tangible emotion. I keep telling myself to do a minimal emotive piece like this and it always goes sideways. smile Lovely work.

Sounds pretty and contemplative and the wordless vocals express a lot.  I have certainly felt rudderless at times, so I can relate to that feeling.  Any time I feel like I'm lacking in purpose I recall a quote from Kurt Vonnegut:  "We are here on Earth to fart around.  Don't let anybody tell you different."  Somehow it makes me feel better.

Its not bad to stray away from who you are, as it helps you figure out the boundaries of who you'll become, who you'll want to be.

Awesome arrangement, soothing and filled with melancholy. I love it.

Oh! also: Disco Elysium-ey!

Lovely, lovely, lovely. As someone who frequently wishes I could turn back the clock to the 80s, I feel you on the nostalgia part but don’t forget to appreciate the part of the present that are good. And there is plenty of time left to make it even greater.

For sure I never will come back to the naive, fearless kid that I was, which is fine.

Detours... life is full of it. Maybe you need to find a way forward? I don't know. For sure it is great to look back and be nostalgic about it, it means you had good times back then. Time to build good times now and forward.

Hey, love your tracks. It is fine to be "stuck" for a while. Don't be too harsh on yourself!

(I don't want to sound patronizing or anything, you take the message the way you want to, I do have "everything" here and many times I feel like my life sucks so who am I to tell you how to find your way...)

Rock on!

Beautiful. I'd say your best this year by far.

It's okay to mourn what was, what didn't come to be, to mourn who we were and who we thought we'd become. Just remember there's still the living person everyone else knows and loves, you, here and now.

Also fuck the algorithm. Fuck with it. Abuse and torture the algorithm. Make it show you what you want and not knowing why it does. Me? Knitting IG, music IG accounts - algorithm shows me nothing but videos of furries being hilarious. It has no idea why. It can't stop. It struggles and panics and tries to fight back but no matter what it tries it bring up from the rest of the IG abyss it always hands me a furry doing something silly.

FUCK THE ALGORITHM. TAKE BACK YOUR AGENCY AND TORTURE ALL THE AI.

you might be surprised to know how many of us also struggle with these feelings.
we might not be able to go back to these past versions of ourselves, but they are still part of us.
my hope is that we can be present here & now. it's never too late.
i'm glad you are here, and i'm very grateful for your music.
speaking of, this piece is really beautiful and expresses so much. and hooray for more wizard vocals!  heart

I’m grateful for the Tone Matrix we’ve gotten to know on WB. That person’s awesome. 😎

So’s that person’s Week 15 track. Those deep vocals and mournful piano feel soothing in a melancholy yet cathartic kind of way.

A beautiful reflective piece. I really enjoyed the vocals layered gently on top.
I think it's important in our yearning for the past to acknowledge the good that they were, and smile to ourselves that we got to live that past.
Good times will come again.
I look forward to hearing more tracks like this!!

Haunting and beautiful. If it's any consolation - I don't want to meet the person who is satisfied in who they are today. That person denies their flaws, isn't interested in growth, and is content to stagnate and repeat same mistakes over and over. Obviously there's a balance to be struck, and I'm not saying we shouldn't ever be content, but it's good to acknowledge we need to grow (in any direction). heart

you are a piano master !!! every week am amazed by your melodies !!! amazing reflective track !! well done

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Trying to find the words that fit the emotions I have when listening to this and contemplating your words. All I can say is I so often find my self fighting these same feelings. Unfortunately there is no place to go back to you are exactly where you are supposed to be and doing the inner work to recognize the stagnant pond of the past. This is what powers us to find the stream of the present and bathe in it. Come on in the water is fresh. Great track!

Haunting and lovely smile Wishing you more moments of solace and appreciation for all you are.

Reading your words, then the insta video you shared ... while this is playing, gave me strong feels! Piano great as always, but love that voice in here, a great addition.
Thank you for the sounds, the words, sharing. I only know you from here, your music and words, but I think you are an awesome talented person. I think it's fine sometimes the algo gives us something we like. Like if you like fun silly things, it serves those up, and not dark stuff (that's my wife, perfectly tuned algo of pure silly funny, I like to watch over her shoulder. Mines filled with music stuff, but I'm not scrolling much.
But man, those thoughts and feelings are real. I'm getting up there in the years, and I have those thoughts too, like how did I get here, not exactly like planned, but well, I'm gonna take it. Fortunate.  I like what Jwh said above, +1. Right now, we're all doing what we doing, but amazingly, making music together apart on WB, yay for that, thanks for your tunes!

I like the vocal (?) later there, as a sweet hum, as a long sigh, accompanying the piano. This captures the emotion very well. The chords are spicy (or is it my imagination), th added tension is just perfect, breaking the balance and feeling fragile. Wabisabi - the beauty is in imperfections.

Wow, very powerful track, you expressed this very well, I think everyone feels the same way, you just had a great way to write and let us hear that.  At the start of the track you feel nostalgic, sad, resentful, but by the end with the ongoing meditative hum of your vocal you feel much better, a great release off your mind.  Again, great achievement to produce so many feelings from a single track.

This is spectacularly beautiful and mournful. Amazing work.
I don't know the person you wanted to become, but the person you are is kind, generous, talented and capable of astonishingly beautiful works of art. You are an inspiration to me musically and in your kindness and your capacity for such beauty.
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Another gorgeous piano piece! Beautiful work, and emotionally complex.

I can recognize the feelings you're describing! It's ok to be where you are!

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