I Stopped Caring Years Ago

By orangedrink on December 19, 2018 10:48 am

I used to have a really rough time with my family. At one point, I never wanted to see them again. Our relationship isn't perfect now, but it is so much better than it ever has been. I'm leaving tomorrow (Wednesday) to visit them for the holidays. I don't know if they will ever understand me, but that's okay. I want to accept them for who they are and where they're at. I'm really happy and grateful for all the progress we have all collectively made. I'm happy to visit them for the holiday. In a positive sense of acceptance, I stopped caring years ago.

I wrote this and recorded in a whirlwind of 3 or 4 hours. I feel like I 100% captured how I feel right in this moment.

Intro is my friend and his sister, maybe from 1997; outro is my 10th grade English teacher talking about me

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Lyrics:

Don’t go running away
Just don’t go running away
But don’t stay home
They just don’t want you to stay
Left alone

So what is it good for?
They don’t like what they see
So what is it good for?
You don’t know what I mean?

There’s just no way to explain
And this i know
I stopped caring years ago

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December 24, 2018 2:18 am

Jim Wood

Old recordings are a treasure-trove (both positive and negative).

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December 24, 2018 2:31 am

Tweaklab

To not care can be a very powerful thing for one's mental well being. I've had my share of family drama over the years (including this one!) and have gained some tools to, in my own mind, split down what "actually" matters, and what I'm just "supposed" to think matters. Hope you have a great Christmas and new years drink, you're awesome and don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise.

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December 24, 2018 10:04 pm

NWSPR

High praise from your English teacher. Creativity showing through at an early age. Were you a young archivist? Pretty cool to have box of cassettes from the past.

Your vocals really shine. The feeling comes through. Maybe because you captured in the 3 hours rather than reworking. Much enjoyed. Have a good trip and holiday!

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