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Every Fear You've Ever Had is True

By Ninefingers on March 24, 2024 5:11 pm

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And I'm kind of shattered by that. And I might have just lost my best friend.

So I'm going through it. I ended up getting very drunk that night and in the early morning put this thing together on my toy organ after messing around with phantom of the opera melody's. It's very dramatic and despairing, but that's just cause this is where I'm at.

I may have just lost my favorite person. And I don't know where to go from here. I just feel big sad.

Anyway, here is me being drunk and dramatic about my frame of mind at that time. Or at this time I suppose.

I don't think this good. It's clunky and I indulge in a rabbit hole of fears I have about myself. But making it did make me feel a little better. At least I was able to go sleep after I made it.

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Everything that you feared is true
All the thoughts that worried you, that stuck to you, they all were true
Intrusive thoughts and nauseous nights
You told yourself they couldn’t be right
But all the fears you ever had were true

"You’re too old, you’ve lost your hair"
"You’re too fat and you’re too poor"
"You don’t belong there, and you don’t belong here"
Every thought you’ve ever had is true

They never loved you, they just loved how you made them feel
Those times they held you, should have known that it couldn’t be real
All the thoughts that worried you, that stuck to you, they all were true
All the fears you’ve ever had are true

You’ll die one day on the road
And everyone will talk about the smile you had, the love you showed
But you will leave this world filled with tears and all alone
Everything you ever feared is true

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well im glad you finely got some sleep after all you went through

Stephin Merritt ain't got nothin on you, Nine! I hope you're feeling better -- you deserve better.

fetalface wrote:

Stephin Merritt ain't got nothin on you, Nine! I hope you're feeling better -- you deserve better.

Just to be clear as I am more coherent and sober and less rambley at this moment in time, I was not cheated on, which as I read this mess of a post now I can see could be inferred. That did not happen. What did happen was being lied to during my friendship about something that I had clearly stated was very important to me as I suspected (rightly) that their boss was trying to get in their pants and encouraging them to end what had been a very lovely relationship so that they could get the chance to do it. I'd just never been lied to by this person before, and never thought I ever would be.

Being lied to sucks. Hang in there! The song was a great background to reading the story. Thanks for sharing and here’s to a better week!

Let's go play kicky ball.

Bosses also generally suck

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