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The Ride

By Minnamari on April 9, 2026 6:55 pm

[SKIP the first paragraph if you don't feel like reading details about illness etc..I don't know how to "roll up" the text under a clickable link, if anyone wants to teach me, feel free smile

I started writing this song sometime in 2022, as a way of processing events/experiences from when my first child was a baby.  I spent a week hospitalized after a botched operation, trying to heal my beast inflammation.. Felt like a weird Frankenstein'monster with a tube stuck to my chest for days, and still tried to pump milk to bring my baby.. And then the hospital visits for months after, with bus rides home from the hospital, hoping the painkillers would kick in after all the biopsies they took to try to figure out why I wouldn't heal...But, the biggest pain was probably the pain I felt in my heart at the fact that for the first half year of my baby's life, it was painful to even hold him because I had gaping wounds in my chest. In the end it wasn't the doctors that healed me, but the way I started caring for myself again. But it's been tough. It's SO Hard to prioritize your own wellbeing when there's a tiny little human screaming for you. I was really overriding my own needs for that first half year..every person who is navigating this balancing act of caring for others + themselves to the best of their ability is a hero in my eyes.

This song was incomplete for many years, I couldn't find a way to wrap up the ending and I was honestly a bit shy to sing it because it has both some cheeky AND some deeply vulnerable parts. Well, maybe now I'm in a place where I don't care as much or I've healed enough or am just in a different place and feel like it's time to release this story. Maybe in releasing it, I can move forward even more fully. The ride goes on..




Lyrics:

A pregnant woman can also ride
Enjoying her body lying on the side
You know my legs can open really wide
I have the proof right here
Oh, I hope they won't mind...

Their mother needs to let out some steam
Or else she will start bursting at the seams
With heart and mind so open, there is nowhere I won't elope
And afterwards it all seems just like a dream

Life feels like a dream since you arrived here
Well, if I'm honest, it's a bloody nightmare
(at times)
And yet, I hope you know there's nothing I wouldn't do
I'd gladly give my life protecting you
But I'd rather try to live a life
That could inspire you
To live a life too

After my first child I was in denial
No one taught me how to mourn the death of my childless life
After the second one: No time for pride
Had to learn it only helps to look inside
That inner star is my tourist guide
This is a funny tour, this little thing called life
So much reason to be awed, yet so much strife

The thing that's supposed to nurture you
Is filled with wounds and bleeding too
The doctors take another biopsy
It seems my body will never be free
The biopsy gun makes another hole
While you are hungry waiting at home

I... disappear into the ceiling squares
Just somehow have to get out of there
The painkiller bus gets me home
But now there is really no hope
For milk to come out of this breast
Can't help feeling worse than the rest
Still you fall asleep at my chest
And I swear that You are the best

Life feels like a dream since you arrived here
And sometimes it might feel like a nightmare

But baby, I hope you know
I'm gonna try to help you grow
And while you grow, your mom will grow with you
She still has some growing to do too
Let's grow together, baby
I know there's a day when you're gonna fly away
But for now, we will have a ride of a lifetime
But for now, we will have a ride of a lifetime

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Hope you are in an happy place now, healthy and with a good life balance (work, taking care of yourself and the kids)

Take care. I really like the authenticity of the track. Nice chord progression, beautiful message. Ending sounds "in peace".

It is fun to see how much our life gravitate over our kids, for better and for worse smile.

djippy wrote:

Hope you are in an happy place now, healthy and with a good life balance (work, taking care of yourself and the kids)

Take care. I really like the authenticity of the track. Nice chord progression, beautiful message. Ending sounds "in peace".

It is fun to see how much our life gravitate over our kids, for better and for worse smile.

Thank you. Yes, am in a much better place. It was in the way I was much healthier with baby nr 2 that I realized how tough it actually had been the first time around. It helped drop self-blame and see the situation more clearly. And these days I can play and hug both my kids and maybe appreciate it more after knowing the other possibility. But yeah, parents need their own play time too tongue

Take care! big_smile

So glad to hear you are in a better place.  Lovely chord changes that create such a beautiful and emotional song.  heart

Let's grow together, baby
I know there's a day when you're gonna fly away
But for now, we will have a ride of a lifetime

heart

the reverb is very effective on this recording!

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*for rolling up text, this is the code you would use:

> in the first brackets, you would replace "tacos" with whatever text you would like to be visible
> and in between the sets of brackets, you would replace "Hello there!" with whatever text you want rolled up/ hidden.

hope that helps! you can always try it in a comment first (and then delete the comment), if you want to see if it works before adding it to a song description. the code works the same in comments and descriptions.   smile

Tone Matrix wrote:

So glad to hear you are in a better place.  Lovely chord changes that create such a beautiful and emotional song.  heart

Thank you dear heart

jwh wrote:

Let's grow together, baby
I know there's a day when you're gonna fly away
But for now, we will have a ride of a lifetime

heart

the reverb is very effective on this recording!

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*for rolling up text, this is the code you would use:

> in the first brackets, you would replace "tacos" with whatever text you would like to be visible
> and in between the sets of brackets, you would replace "Hello there!" with whatever text you want rolled up/ hidden.

hope that helps! you can always try it in a comment first (and then delete the comment), if you want to see if it works before adding it to a song description. the code works the same in comments and descriptions.   smile


› Yay!

› ayyyy!

thank you for sharing this vulnerable song - may you move forward even more fully heart

as you live your life too your children will see that: “Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.”― Kahlil Gibran

also you are a fantastic writer/storyteller:

“Writers remember everything...especially the hurts. Strip a writer to the buff, point to the scars, and he'll tell you the story of each small one. From the big ones you get novels. A little talent is a nice thing to have if you want to be a writer, but the only real requirement is the ability to remember the story of every scar.
Art consists of the persistence of memory.”
― Stephen King, Misery


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