Synkkyys
By Minnamari on September 20, 2024 2:15 pm
So..probably one of my darker songs. Another one from the archives. It was just a little thing I wrote sometime in my twenties, consisting only of the bass tones, and some words. I felt it wanted to be revisisted and turned into a more "full-fledged" song.
Synkkyys means Darkness, or perhaps more accurately Gloominess. It is a Finnish word that I can't find an exact equivalent in English, it is more connected to the mental state. While the song itself is gloomy, it plays an important role, such as music can play, with transmuting these darknesses into a new shape, or giving it a place to rest. But sure, there's also the risk that the listener gets dragged into that gloom...but sometimes you need to be there for a bit so you can come out again. At least that was my experience. Guess that's what this song tries to express.
For this song, I tried to work with the original material in a way that the energy was maintained but adding some additional elements that kind of contrast with that too. The end result feels a bit like a gloomy circus ride when I listen to it myself
Lyrics:
Synkkyys (original, Finnish lyrics)
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Kun synkkyys syö mua sisältä
Mä kirjoitan sen lauluihin
Ja yritän työntää musta pois, pois
Olen kylmäkiskoinen, uppiniskainen, surullinen turhasta
Niin vaikea ja älytön ja meen paniikkiin ihan kaikesta
Ja tiedän sen, se on mun oma vika
...Vai onko se, onko se mun vika?
Kun synkkyys syö mua sisältä
Mä murskaan sen mun lauluihin
Ja hyväksyn etten voi työntää sitä pois, pois
Mä annan sen syödä mut kokonaan
Kunnes mitään ei oo jäljellä
Enkä edes yritä
...En vaan jaksa yrittää
Mä täytyn mielummin synkästä
Koska en jaksa yrittää
Ehkä se jotenkin auttaa
Ehkä se puhdistaa
Lopulta
Synkkyys (lyrics translated to English)
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When the darkness eats me from inside
I write it into my songs
And try to push it away, away
I am aloof, obstinate, get sad over nothing,
So difficult and ludicrous, and go into a panic from anything
And yes I know, it is my own fault
...Or is it, is it my fault?
When the darkness eats me from inside
I crush it into my songs
And accept that I can't push it away, away
I let it eat me up completely
Until nothing is left
And I don't even try
...I just don't have the energy to try
I'd rather be filled with darkness
Because I don't have the energy to try
Maybe it helps somehow
Maybe it cleans
In the end
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