Patterns
By Minnamari on May 25, 2024 6:47 pm
I kind of wish I could play around with sounds more, but simply haven't had the energy to sit with sound editing software, so this is another "simpler" recording, just me singing by my piano. There was something about this song that used to annoy my "experimental" persona, since it has a bit of a traditional pop vibe to it..like a power ballad pop song...(?) but I decided I will just embrace it and be accepting of whatever songs want to come out through me. If it is pop or power ballads then so it is! But still usually with my melancholy flair..
This song is inspired by the experience of trying to grow past your patterns, but then realizing some of those patterns are simply who you are, and you are actually trying to grow out of them so that you will become someone that will fit the mold of what another person wants...and the eventual understanding that some daydreams need to be sacrificed on the way towards seeing yourself and your life clearly, instead of living inside of hopes that won't go anywhere.
Lyrics:
I'm always in a hurry
You tell me "Dear, don't worry"
Then you dance
But I lost my chance
I'm too scared to step out
So I dream that we were left out
in the dark
Together at last
Trying to change but the patterns keep clinging to me
Just let me be
Trying to grow but the growing's just showing me how
I'm still stuck being me
Sending you a letter
I want to share a better
version of me
Someone wild and free
Your answer is immediate
I'm lovely but I'm too late
Coming on too strong,
Too right, Too wrong
Trying to change but the patterns keep clinging to me
Even wild and free
Trying to grow but the growing's just showing me how
I'm still stuck inbetween
My love is not about you
Somehow, I just need to love you
Yet, it's also true
that it's all about you
You represent a future
full of love and nurture
so why would I mind
that it's all in my mind?
Trying to change but the patterns keep clinging to me
Just let me be
Trying to grow but the growing's just showing me how
I'm still stuck in my need
My dreams keep me alive
until I die
until I die
Waking up, it's just a lie
a lovely lie
a lovely lie
My daydreams give me hope
until they turn into a rope
that keeps my bound
for another round
Trying to change but the patterns keep clinging to me
Just let them be
Trying to grow but the growing's just showing me how
I'm still stuck
Trying to change but the patterns keep clinging to me
Just let them be
Trying to grow but the growing's just showing me how
I'm still stuck being free
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