A Day When You're Alive
By Minnamari on November 21, 2024 10:15 am
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I dreamed you died
My dearest child
My child
I screamed and cried
I screamed and cried
In the dream, I woke to the darkest night
I screamed and cried
Your feet outside the door
Annoyed me before
Forcing me to awake too early
Wearing your cute little smile
But today, oh today
What a wonderful smile
What a wonderful sound
Those little steps of yours,
Coming to greet me
To a day when you're alive
Last night I had the worst nightmare I have ever had: dreaming my child died. Waking up to hearing my child's steps was like entering paradise. One of those cases where a dream shows you such a horrible alternative that it makes you appreciate your life very deeply. I'm still crying today, because that dream felt so real that I have to process the experience of the death. It felt like I actually experienced my child dying. And this song is another way of trying to do that. Yesterday I was playing with my child by this same keyboard where I wrote the song now. My child was testing out different dials and sounds and left it at these Celestial Pad, so I decided to use the same sound in the song. Hug/care for your loved ones today. This is a day when they're, and you're, alive.
P.S. If I disappear from WeekleayBeats for the final weeks, it is probably because I have welcomed another child to my life and need to focus on that...I'm actually 38 weeks pregnant with the due date at the beginning of December so the baby could come any day now. We'll see. Maybe this dream was connected to processing these experiences/emotions of what my family means to me. Anyway, thanks for all your wonderful music and keep going. Hopefully I can join more, but we'll see. I'll leave this note here just in case. 
P.P.S. A few days later: baby decided to come, so I will probably not take part in more weeks for quite a while. I'm writing this a few days after giving birth (which happened later the same day I wrote the earlier P.S note, funnily enough). Writing this with the baby snoozing in my arms. So this will be my priority for a while. Just being with the baby and with my family.
Thanks for this year! It was awesome to take part. Looking forward to joining another year, probably not next year but further on. Hope you can enjoy these last weeks and have fun with it. See you later! (:
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