In my avatar you can see a photo of my beloved cat, Copo de Nieve ("Snowball", in spanish). He's probably 16 (we don't know for sure, since we pick him up from the street when he was an adult, so we guess he was between one and two years old back then).

He's been very sick lately, suffering from severe thyroid and kidney failure. He stopped eating altogether two weeks ago. We've been giving him food with syringes, along with medication, but he has lost a lot of weight. He was a fluffy 7.5 kilogram cat; now he's barely 3.6.

He's severely anemic. Quite apathic, just want to be by himself and rejects all kinds of food or liquid, except water.

I guess you all understand what all that means. It's hard to let him go, but we don't want him to fade out until he collapses out of weakness. We've force-feed him small amounts of liquid food but he's visibly distressed and anyways it's not enough nutrients for him, not by chance.

So this week I just made this loop. Wanted to automate some things in Reaper but I had an issue with the playback, then gave up. Please excuse me if I don't give a fuck about my audio drivers, or song structure.

I love my cat. He's "the king of the house"... I don't want him to suffer, yet it's not easy to put him to sleep, like his life was just something I could cancel whenever I want.

It's not the only struggle my family has been lately, though I don't feel like I want to talk about it. I just wanted to make some soothing harmonies, for Copo.

El Rey de la Casa.

Tags: copo de nieve, week 39 2024, View by:laguna