Lullaby of the Lost
By Daisy on July 12, 2022 8:54 am
I begin composing with no image or purpose. I am guided by the “other” in me. After I have composed a piece of music, I have to figure out why I wrote it. I was mystified by the the anguish here, until I realized what week it was. I nearly didn't post this explanation, but reasoned that this might help or enlighten others to this very human experience.
This is for the 2 babies I lost 6 years apart in July. These two events always cast a shadow-- some years more than other years, but still the shadow is there.
The initial Lullaby is me being at peace with the early pregnancy.
Then Violin sobs-- No, not this! Twice.
The cello answer with szforzandos NO!. NO!
Then the Viola starts a quiet staccato rhythm as the heart beat begins to fail.
Then rush to the hospital-- the confusion
The two-beat triplets as anesthesia
then the ragged rhythm of loss.
Major chord as their goodbye to me.
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