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Song for Joy #52

By brian botkiller on December 25, 2018 10:07 pm

I've completed another year of Weekly Beats.
This has been probably the hardest year of my life.
I have worked really hard to keep my head above water this year. I've had a lot of challenges. Sadly my time in Minnesota has really put a serious stress on everything in my life, and basically all things are in the air now. I'm leaving Minnesota with a lot less than when I got here -- this place has really seriously worked me over in a lot of ways that I wasn't really ready for. 

I went into this project with the plan to write 52 songs for my wife. I have accomplished that. Unfortunately there's been a lot of trials within our lives this year, which I never foresaw happening. I don't know if that has all translated into the music -- my goal here was not to write traditional love songs, but to write songs that are about times/spaces/memories and inspired by these things.

As such, my final song of the year was inspired by this image:

Which I turned into MIDI using Tom Cosm's image to MIDI converter in Max 4 Live in Ableton Live.

I used that as the foundation of the song, and then layered in the other bits, a bit of techno-inspired pad and drums that are the sound that I love.

This picture means a lot to me -- it is from a trip to Colorado when Paula and I were just getting to know one another and falling in love. It's one of my favorite pictures on the planet. I believe it was taken by Steven Ziff.

I'd like to think that this type of happiness is attainable again -- I suppose we will see what the future holds. Unfortunately right now, my life is basically in a gazillion pieces and I have no idea how the fuck I'm putting them together.

For now, I leave this year knowing that I have done all that I can do to do things right in my life, and I hope that that translates into the future. I tried really hard to make everything work, I've worked myself to the bone. As of now I don't know where all that has gotten me. I'm terribly distraught and worn down. I'm not trying to be a downer, I assure you. I just don't know where my life is at right now. 

Thanks for listening.


You'll have a whole year to get it sorted, unfortunately it'll also be a year without a lot of us. We'll still be around though.

Heartbreaking to read, I hope and am sure that things will get better for you heart Keep moving forward, and all the best in the coming year.

I love you dude, and I am here for you.  Let me know how I can help; I'm always here to be a listening ear for your music or feelings otherwise


Happy New Year.

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Somehow Weekly Beats sent me here and not to your final track of 2024!

I sincerely hope 2025 treats you well! I've had some challenges myself this year, but it sounds like what you went through in 2018 was on an entirely different level. Sorry to hear that, hopefully things got better since?

In any case, this is a lucky find for me as I enjoyed this song! I went for a long-ass track last week myself. Gotta have a finale to the journey, right? And this is a proper sendoff, gorgeous subtle synths and pads, a quiet acid line. Yeah, this is a good track. The misty atmosphere and the minor chord choices are somewhat surprising to me as a listener given the attached picture, but that's actually more interesting. It feels like a night drive.

Cheers!

rplktr wrote:

Somehow Weekly Beats sent me here and not to your final track of 2024!

I sincerely hope 2025 treats you well! I've had some challenges myself this year, but it sounds like what you went through in 2018 was on an entirely different level. Sorry to hear that, hopefully things got better since?

In any case, this is a lucky find for me as I enjoyed this song! I went for a long-ass track last week myself. Gotta have a finale to the journey, right? And this is a proper sendoff, gorgeous subtle synths and pads, a quiet acid line. Yeah, this is a good track. The misty atmosphere and the minor chord choices are somewhat surprising to me as a listener given the attached picture, but that's actually more interesting. It feels like a night drive.

Cheers!

thanks man, this one goes WAY back for me and it's so weird to think of where I was at this time. I really appreciate your listening to it. I'll check out your work!

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