Best Friend
By alterationx10 on January 8, 2026 9:59 pm
Back in 2023, I had to put my cat down.
He was my best friend of 15 years.
He was a sweet orange tabby.
He had cancer.
I've never had to put down a pet before.
In the end, every morning I would go downstairs to check on him.
I would feed him extra foods in small portions three times a day.
I would go to the store, and look at the pet food aisle, and wonder if this was the last thing I'd ever buy for him. I wondered if the person at the register would make small talk, and I'd have to bury it all down.
He died peacfully in our home. Euthanasia.
The day after, I woke up and all of the extra chores and anxiety from the past months was gone.
My body felt relieved, but emotionally I was drained.
I had to go through my house, and look at all the spots he would never be again.
I told myself it's ok to be ok.
I don't know if I believed myself.
I still don't.
I'm not crying you're crying! Why is it so fucking dusty in here?
Anyway, catharcism is cathartic. The song is in A Major at 110 bpm.
I auto-tuned my vocals less this week, but alas I have yet to perfect my singing voice.
Re-strung one guitar to drop c so I could chug some chords.
Have to admit I cheated on the clean guitar track - one progression was too hard for me to play, so I recorded the chords individually and then summed them.
Next week I'm hoping to make a more upbeat electro-swing song called "Rapture" - probably most instruments in Ableton this time, but I'll still add some shitty rag-time vocals for you ;-)
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