Horror Film
By orangedrink on September 4, 2016 7:26 pm
I wrote and recorded this song in 2012 after two acquaintances unexpectedly passed away within a week of each other. One was shot in a carjacking, the other died of alcohol poisoning. Johnathan was a member of my recording studio co-op, and ______ was the friend/ex-girlfriend of a musician friend of mine.
The idea for the song was to make the experience a metaphor for watching a horror movie, as I felt completely horrified and helpless as to the news around me. I tried to include horror movie tropes, where the victims run up the stairs instead of running out of the house. Or when the victims split up instead of sticking together. "We should have never split up" is a double entendre about my friend possibly thinking that he shouldn't have broken up with his ex-girlfriend, maybe she wouldn't have died. I almost didn't type that last sentence because it feels too invasively personal to reveal about myself, or to project the (perceived) emotions of my friend. But that's the truth of why I wrote it. The line "I never wanted to die" really breaks my heart to hear me scream. Man.
This is a tough song for me to come back to. I did post mastering/hard limiting and a low end EQ boost. Maybe I could have EQed the bass by itself, but I feel tired and not in a good mood today and this song itself makes me sad and I think I just need to let it go. I don't think anyone is going to love or hate the song based on the bass guitar EQ notch that I could have done. Maybe I'll do it before I release this song to the general public. Thanks for listening, here are the lyrics:
i tried to run in the night
through tears i couldn't see
i never wanted to die
some things you can't believe
i ran out through the door
i did not run up the stairs
we should have never split up
i should have never come back
it's killing me
it's killing me
it's killing me
Dedicated to the loving memory of Johnathan and Olga. Johnathan's last social media post was that he wished he had more time to spend at the studio. No matter what happens, we should all be immensely proud and grateful that we have the time and energy to share our gift of music. No matter how terrible we think it is at times.
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