Everything Is Not Going To Be Okay
By Tweaklab on January 14, 2024 9:08 pm
So for those who caught Week 1, this track will probably make a bit more sense. But to keep up with the current theme, my mum passed away on the 19th of December following a quadruple bypass.
The past week has mostly featured grief in the form of anger and frustration, the vibe (and Mick Gordon of a reference of a title) of the track really captures the feeling of being in that private room in the ICU breaking the news to my father that mum was not going to make it despite his optimism.
I am really happy with how my first tune went using ToneForge "Disruptor" I finally picked it up during black friday sales around November and it's used for both the bass track and lead guitar tone. The tuning is Double Drop D on my 8-string, aka, The Only Thing They Fear Is You tuning from DOOM Eternal.
The mix is no doubt sloppy, there are a lot of frequencies wanting front and center but that was kind of intentional given the inspo.
I feel like Week 1 was for Mum, Week 2 is for me.
The frustration comes from mum not taking her health seriously, due to her being a narcissist, the years she will never get back with me or my kids, that it was always up to me to avoid her egg shells to make any sort of a relationship work. That there are no do-overs, this is it.
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