This week I was musically super productive, and have started/completed many different electronic pieces, but you don't get to hear any of that. This week I forced myself to record this song instead.

Last week I turned 23, the age that Blink-182 proclaimed no one likes you at. Always one for nostalgia/overthinking, I reflected much upon my life.

23 marks 10 years since I picked up a bass guitar. This changed my life. All of a sudden music wasn't just notes on a page, it was something I could write. Writing music has since been the one constant in my life. I never got to be the bass player in a punk band like I wanted to, but music has always been there.

Music has always been an outlet for me, even if I did not realise at the time. Reflecting, perhaps in the past 10 years playing music has been some of the times when I'd truly felt at peace with the world, or perhaps just blissfully unaware.

A lot has changed over the years, but many things have not. I like to think I have grown a lot, but fundamentally, I still struggle with life, and I still write music to help me through.

This track is for me. For my 13 year old self. It's just me and my bass guitar, struggling to fit into the world around.

This track is also for me as an adult. I wrote this song in 2018, in a particularly difficult time (as the song might tell you without a trace of subtlety), but I never recorded it. I'm forcing myself to record it now to let it go. I'm forcing myself to record it and not care about the imperfections. I'm forcing myself to record my own voice and accept how it sounds.

Perhaps you may like this track, perhaps you may not, but none of that really matters. This track is for me.

Tags: week 10 2020, View by:Tom Foolery