Baritone Cassette Tape I
By orangedrink on June 6, 2020 1:08 am
I'm very tired and exhausted and overwhelmed. It took all my strength to not do an electronic song; my guitar has never felt heavier. I love music and I love playing music but I have not been in the mood to do this for over a month now! This was a baritone guitar loop jam (one of my favorite things to do) and then I put a slowed down version of my week 19 song "Something On My Mind" - I didn't intend this at first, I was just messing around with audio thinking I might sample the song, but then it ended up resembling my old 4-track cassette tapes, when I used to record over other tapes and songs would appear at incorrect speeds and places.
I want to do a show or something to raise money to support social justice causes - but I'm really not in the mood to play a show. I'm also worried I'm going to say the wrong thing or something. I also don't have a ton of energy to get into online fights with people who are unwilling to listen. I'm going to be try to be gentle with myself and give myself time to do what I'm able, when I'm able. If anyone needs someone to talk to, about anything, I'm available for private conversations.
It's pride month! I don't feel particularly prideful, but it's important for me to continue to work on my own internalized homophobia and self-hate and recognize that I'm not alone. Did you know that trans women of color were instrumental in the Stonewall protests in 1969? The protests were against police brutality, imagine that. What we know as "Pride Fest" today is a commemoration of those protests. Thank you to people like Miss Marsha and Miss Sylvia
https://www.mic.com/articles/121256/mee l-veterans
Because of people like them and countless others, I'm able to be legally married today and live with my husband in our house, where I write all my music in the basement studio. Thanks everyone.
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