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By hent03 on February 12, 2020 2:09 pm
Over the last few years I got caught up in the idea that I needed people to read my stories. I was trapped in the idea that I needed writing to be my career or it wouldn't be 'real'. I felt like that was important. But at the end of 2019 I had to reconsider what creative writing meant to me. In the end, I realized that I don't write to be read, I write because storytelling is something I enjoy. Don't get me wrong, I love it when people read my work and enjoy it or draw meaning from it, but that isn't what drives me to create. It doesn't matter to me if a story is 'good' or 'bad'. It doesn't really matter to me what people think, either. What matters is whether or not my heart is in it, because there is something special about capturing a feeling or a moment in a narrative experience, even if nobody reads it.
Music for me is a very raw expression of this idea. I don't have much in the way of musical ability or knowledge, so I kind of just stumble around looking for what feels good, and if it feels good, I consider it a success. The ability and the knowledge will (I hope) come with time, study, and experimentation.
Anyway, of all the tracks I've made so far, I feel like this one sums up that feeling for me most clearly.
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