Aday wrote:Weeklybeats has helped me reflect the following
- Where I stand technically
- What I'm capable of
- What I'm potentially capable of.
- Try and break though some personal barriers
>> It's also a good way to kind of give your self an indication of what you were sounding like at that time. /an epoch/timecapsule!!/
This is a terrific post - some very wise words here. Doing any kind of personal reflection, such as keeping a journal or making music, is bound to expose our own patterns of thought and our beliefs about ourselves. Sometimes these will be positive and empowering (wow, I actually massed to come up with an entirely new piece in a matter of hours!), other times they might be negative or disarming (I can't keep up with other people, I don't think my style is original, etc.)
True or not, and the negative blurts are most often very false indeed, the creative process brings these ideas that we have collected about ourselves to the surface. The problem is that we can let them take over, identify with them and let them drag us down. But the most important thing to be aware of is your own creative potential - treat it with care and honour, observe the doubts and insecurities jumping for your attention and then...here's the crucial (and easy!) bit...just keep creating. Don't think, don't analyse or worry, just counter those feelings with action. Make something, tiny or whatever, just do it! You'll feel better and prove your worries wrong every...single...time
I've found this past ten weeks a rather trying journey at times, wondering if I can keep up, if I'm dreaming too big, able to make something new every time, if I'll be able to endure the self-shaming that will occur if I miss a week or drop out...it's quite an emotional thing, exposing and challenging your creative process like this, so it's bound to bring up feelings like this.
But all is well, your creative voice is always a unique part of you (even if you tried your utmost to copy another musician, it will always have your own personal stamp on it) and we are all full of ideas and potential, regardless of whether or not our current life-situation makes it easy for us to make a tune any given week. Enjoy your creativity and avoid anything that makes you doubt it! Take a break if you need to, this is all just a game