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not enough.too much

By emily on May 22, 2022 8:32 pm

“Living in a female body, a Black body, an aging body, a fat body, a body with mental illness is to awaken daily to a planet that expects a certain set of apologies to already live on our tongues. There is a level of “not enough” or “too much” sewn into these strands of difference.”
Sonya Renee Taylor, The Body Is Not an Apology: The Power of Radical Self-Love


been feeling the effects of the steady drum beat of anger & hate & unsure how to process it...

of all the news i took in about Buffalo this week this interview really stayed with me

i have had on my mind this week:

Ruth Whitfield
Aaron Salter
Roberta Drury
Heyward Patterson
Pearl Young
Geraldine Talley
Celestine Chaney
Katherine Massey
Margus Morrison
Andre Mackneil


your lives mattered - your loss is heavy on my heart

sending love to your families & the whole Buffalo, NY community

a place to support: voice buffalo

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› beautiful!


big_smile <- *face-melting emoji*

Oof, that change in texture around the middle to the tolling bell thing - so haunting. Especially given the topic matter of this week. Beautiful.

powerful song. wow those bells. it's soul crushing to hear such frequent news of such tragedies in the US. I hope it will get better.

I dig the distortion sound and the way the beat changes up and of course the bells.  I don't dig the event that inspired the track but there doesn't seem to be any escaping stuff like this.

The music gives a voice to the emotions in this track. The anger with the first section, its distorted layers and the drum beat (I love this beat and the way it breaks). The bells stop the breath as we reflect behind statistics to each actual individual. The silence afterward and the mourning. That was a tasteful way to address a tragedy.

Very strong message. That bass synth and the erratic beats are massive!  Hit with a Gary Numan vibe. Then the funeral bells like meditation. You continue to add to your sonic arsenal.

I looked up each of those names and it broke my heart. honestly, I have become so desensitized to shootings (there was another one just today at an elementary school of all places). but when it happens to Black people, it hurts on so many more levels, especially when some soulless coward (yes, terrorist, as the gentleman in the interview pointed out) is specifically targeting them. ugh and I just can't with Tucker Carlson.

I like the anger in the pads, and the way the harmonics in the bells weirdly mirror some of the notes in the chords.

This is correct.

Goodness me. Thank you.
- Devieus

Super dark sounding beat especially with how it changes itself up with that stutter effect.  The bells and ending were really emotional to hear. 

This goes deeply under the skin. The beat stuttering telling that something strange has entered daily life routines ...

RajaTheResidentAlien wrote:

› beautiful!


big_smile &lt;- *face-melting emoji*

fc wrote:

Oof, that change in texture around the middle to the tolling bell thing - so haunting. Especially given the topic matter of this week. Beautiful.

horatiuromantic wrote:

powerful song. wow those bells. it's soul crushing to hear such frequent news of such tragedies in the US. I hope it will get better.

CosmicCairns wrote:

I dig the distortion sound and the way the beat changes up and of course the bells.  I don't dig the event that inspired the track but there doesn't seem to be any escaping stuff like this.

Kedbreak136 wrote:

The music gives a voice to the emotions in this track. The anger with the first section, its distorted layers and the drum beat (I love this beat and the way it breaks). The bells stop the breath as we reflect behind statistics to each actual individual. The silence afterward and the mourning. That was a tasteful way to address a tragedy.

NWSPR wrote:

Very strong message. That bass synth and the erratic beats are massive!  Hit with a Gary Numan vibe. Then the funeral bells like meditation. You continue to add to your sonic arsenal.

license wrote:

I looked up each of those names and it broke my heart. honestly, I have become so desensitized to shootings (there was another one just today at an elementary school of all places). but when it happens to Black people, it hurts on so many more levels, especially when some soulless coward (yes, terrorist, as the gentleman in the interview pointed out) is specifically targeting them. ugh and I just can't with Tucker Carlson.

I like the anger in the pads, and the way the harmonics in the bells weirdly mirror some of the notes in the chords.

Cauldron of Bats wrote:

This is correct.

Devieus wrote:

Goodness me. Thank you.
- Devieus

Tone Matrix wrote:

Super dark sounding beat especially with how it changes itself up with that stutter effect.  The bells and ending were really emotional to hear.

Fred und Luna wrote:

This goes deeply under the skin. The beat stuttering telling that something strange has entered daily life routines ...



Thank you friends for listening to me talk & play about my feelings & for your thoughts & feels heart

Nothing else to say, but beautiful!

I didn't know how to talk about this one a week ago. I don't really know in light of this week, either. First off--the track is crazy good, and so is the production. Every element is great: the beat, that fuzzy bass, the bell sustain. The tolling bell & the moment of silence that follows -- I don't have the right word for it. The clinical version would be "works" but I hope you will share my frustration with that word here, but it's better than the more-batshit-in-context "effective." And the closing sound is magic!

About the write-up... In 2020, my partner's conservative family began to ask some rather interesting questions about what was going in Seattle, so we watched the subject of the NYTimes piece you shared for a few months. It was depressing, but itemizing the strategies used should also include "asking a non-trivial question accompanied by some leading imagery" -- it's downright depressing how transparent and effective that is.

This is turning out to be a very violent year...

J Sangha wrote:

Nothing else to say, but beautiful!

thank you thank you thank you

ilzxc wrote:

I didn't know how to talk about this one a week ago. I don't really know in light of this week, either. First off--the track is crazy good, and so is the production. Every element is great: the beat, that fuzzy bass, the bell sustain. The tolling bell &amp; the moment of silence that follows -- I don't have the right word for it. The clinical version would be "works" but I hope you will share my frustration with that word here, but it's better than the more-batshit-in-context "effective." And the closing sound is magic!

About the write-up... In 2020, my partner's conservative family began to ask some rather interesting questions about what was going in Seattle, so we watched the subject of the NYTimes piece you shared for a few months. It was depressing, but itemizing the strategies used should also include "asking a non-trivial question accompanied by some leading imagery" -- it's downright depressing how transparent and effective that is.

This is turning out to be a very violent year...

i was worried this piece was not capturing what i wanted to convey - mostly i was just trying to process
thank you for the "working" compliment vs "effective"
i loved reading that whole response out...

the violence is ramping up here locally too...

how do we even process or address this stuff as artist/humans/witnesses...?

more to reply... i tried to email you through the form on your WB page smile

Great song, and thank for the words and processing. The bells, and seeing the names. Sad, chills. So crazy, so hard to deal with. What to do? Just our parts perhaps, be the best we can be, and maybe in our need to connect with others help a community also do the best they can. Powerful song thank you. I haven't been keeping up on listening to WB the past weeks, Glad I'm hearing you and others now today. Sending warmth outward!

miraclemiles wrote:

Great song, and thank for the words and processing. The bells, and seeing the names. Sad, chills. So crazy, so hard to deal with. What to do? Just our parts perhaps, be the best we can be, and maybe in our need to connect with others help a community also do the best they can. Powerful song thank you. I haven't been keeping up on listening to WB the past weeks, Glad I'm hearing you and others now today. Sending warmth outward!

thank you!  i was pondering your question "what to do?" and it made me think of Glennen Doyle who said “Just do the next right thing one thing at a time. That’ll take you all the way home.” 

this song is so dark and evil

holy crap, this tucker carlson article......

[soul has left body]
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orangedrink wrote:

this song is so dark and evil

holy crap, this tucker carlson article......

[soul has left body]
[user is no longer online]

i didn't mean to make a dark and evil song - was not my intent - just trying to process/grieve

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