Falling Forever
By Cosmic Cairns on May 19, 2020 10:30 pm
Oh man, I had a really rough week and a half or so there, but fingers crossed I think I'm through the worst of it now. Just a lot of stress.
I generally consider myself a positive person. I have my ups and downs like everyone else, but I'd much rather be content and laugh at stuff than be down and complaining or worrying. It was a little harder to avoid the latter when I was dealing with stress, but under normal circumstances my equilibrium state is being pretty chilled out and trying to make the best of things. I've definitely gotten a bit more cynical as I've gotten older and it's hard to watch the news and not feel like the world is teetering on the edge of an abyss sometimes. I try not to dwell too much in that mental head space, but it's where I decided to take some inspiration this week. I actually had written down the phrase "Falling Forever" many years ago and I kept meaning to turn it into a song. Just never got around to it. At first I thought it would be like a "falling in love forever" song or something gooshy like that, but now it's more about like falling into a bottomless pit.
I was about halfway done recording this thing when my computer suddenly crashed. When I went to re-open the session, Reaper kept giving me an error message and wasn't loading anything up. I was on the verge of freaking out, but I discovered the files for all the tracks I had recorded were still saved. I just had to start a new session and then import the tracks in and line them up manually where they were supposed to go. It was a little tedious, but better than losing everything. It interrupted my creative flow a little bit, but I'm overall happy with the results.
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I'm so tired of trying to make sense out of a senseless world
There's no laws and there's no purpose except for what we make ourselves
And is it ever a mess
And how long do you think it'll be until we sink
Into the chasms, into the holes, and into the depths we have made?
I've been staring straight into the heart of an eternal pit
There's no sides and there's no bottom, should we fling ourselves in it?
Falling forever it seems
And how long til the end of all time and all things?
Falling forever, all of us together, falling right into the void
I don't think I'll ever get just why things are the way they are
Don't know why there's pain and evil, don't know why there's moons and stars
Falling forever in dreams
And how far does this go? Does it end? I don't know.
Falling forever through stormy weather, falling forever again
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