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The Day I Stopped Killing Myself

By orangedrink on January 18, 2016 12:01 am

I've struggled with depression and suicidal ideation for a long time, and I'm happy to say that I am recovering.  I've had many years away from it now, gratefully, and it's wonderful to really be living for the first time.  I realized that if I thought the world was meaningless and painful, it was.  Now I believe that the world is limitless and beautiful, and it is.


Lyrics:
Always starting a fight
Never going outside
Believed it was a lie
Keep telling yourself
And one day you'll prolly be right

Only starting to try
Maybe it could be right
Feeling something inside
Stop judging yourself
And one day you'll prolly be right


I had to say "prolblybe" because the song is in 11/4 and it is weird to fit syllables in!  I felt like it was an important line so I was okay with garbling it.  I liked the idea of mirroring the sentiments in each verse: always/never, something/nothing, only/maybe, keep telling/stop judging.  Playing drums in 11/4 was tough but after a while, it made a lot of sense.


I CAN NOT believe I did this in one week!  I played all the instruments on this track and it was SUPER stressful.  But I am really proud of it and consider it my best work to date.  Just like the song, I never believed I could do this, and now I realize I'm capable of more than I'm willing to believe.  Thanks for everyone's support!  This is an incredible project and this is only the THIRD WEEK! smile


Things I learned:
- If your track is still uploading while time runs out, the track will not be uploaded (thanks to the mods for helping me!)
- Taught the boyfriend how to press record, stop, and undo to help me record drum takes.
- Mastering can be fun!
- Weird time signatures can make sense if you take the time to let it "sink in" to your brain

Things for next time:
- Upload the track before Sunday!
- Make a video of recording the instruments

Audio works licensed by author under:
CC Attribution Noncommercial Share Alike (BY-NC-SA)

January 27, 2016 9:32 pm

onezero

Damned fine work here--and you did it in a week.  Great wide guitars, great chord progression, and the drumming makes the 11/4 feel totally natural, which is an achievement. Digging the vocals and backing vocals, too.  Well done!  (And congratulations on making personal improvements, as well!)

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January 28, 2016 3:31 am

exileFaker

Whoa. Love the 11/4 drums and how the vocal lines fall on the rhythm, getting into a groove in unconventional time sig's is the best!

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January 28, 2016 5:09 am

george bowles

love the 11/4 drums! very cool. life is all of what you mentioned there, and more.

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January 28, 2016 5:17 am

orangedrink

onezero wrote:

Damned fine work here--and you did it in a week.  Great wide guitars, great chord progression, and the drumming makes the 11/4 feel totally natural, which is an achievement. Digging the vocals and backing vocals, too.  Well done!  (And congratulations on making personal improvements, as well!)


exileFaker wrote:

Whoa. Love the 11/4 drums and how the vocal lines fall on the rhythm, getting into a groove in unconventional time sig's is the best!

Thanks so much.  It feels pretty darn awesome to receive a penguin ovation.  Alex, your comment about stylistic variety really got me excited for you to hear this track smile


george bowles wrote:

love the 11/4 drums! very cool. life is all of what you mentioned there, and more.


I agree.  I don't mean to infer that the pain or meaninglessness is "bad".  It's all part of life.

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January 28, 2016 7:20 am

paul raygun

Nice work.

I did wb in 2014 doing a song (sometimes more) each week doing all instruments and you'll surprise yourself with what you come up with. 

Although for simplicity and for time reasons garage band drummer sat in on most sessions wink

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January 29, 2016 5:05 am

sylcmyk

big_smile Super glad you're recovering! Also I'm enjoying how natural you make 11 beats per measure feel. heart

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January 29, 2016 5:47 am

mechlo

This is an awesome track. You're really showing your versatility as a prolific artist.

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February 18, 2016 5:14 am

gradients

Whoa dude, Flying Saucer Attack/Spacemen 3 vibes here. Not gonna lie, this might be my favorite track of yours I've ever heard!

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March 1, 2016 12:26 am

Naikymusic

Oh man, nice song for listening in my days off together a girl!

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March 7, 2016 10:04 am

laguna

gradients wrote:

Whoa dude, Flying Saucer Attack/Spacemen 3 vibes here. Not gonna lie, this might be my favorite track of yours I've ever heard!

You took me back to the mid nineties. Beautiful song... They will sell some plugin to sync MIDI to your significant other, for that "play/stop" thing. ALso another that automatically answers "yes, IT IS actually RECORDING right now"


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March 23, 2016 6:04 am

orangedrink

sylcmyk wrote:

big_smile Super glad you're recovering! Also I'm enjoying how natural you make 11 beats per measure feel. <3

heart

mechlo wrote:

This is an awesome track. You're really showing your versatility as a prolific artist.

Thanks!

gradients wrote:

Whoa dude, Flying Saucer Attack/Spacemen 3 vibes here. Not gonna lie, this might be my favorite track of yours I've ever heard!

Thank you, absolutely flattered - that means a lot coming from you!!!

Naikymusic wrote:

Oh man, nice song for listening in my days off together a girl!


yay!

laguna wrote:


You took me back to the mid nineties. Beautiful song... They will sell some plugin to sync MIDI to your significant other, for that "play/stop" thing. ALso another that automatically answers "yes, IT IS actually RECORDING right now"

WAVES HELPFUL BOYFRIEND PLUGIN V2 WITH NEW FUNCTIONS:
"GREAT JOB SWEETIE"
"I THINK IT'S RECORDING"
"HOW DO I UNDO AGAIN?"
"HOLD ON" / "HOLD ON A SECOND" / "WAIT A MINUTE"

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September 29, 2016 5:55 pm

Aday

your lyric delivery is otherworldly. very well done. (ahhh THE REVERSE VOCALS.. MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!)

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